Sabrina

Sabrina was stuck in survival mode, trying to figure out where God wanted her. She shares what it looked like to let go, to be stripped of distractions, and to finally start hearing God's voice clearly. Through spiritual rhythms of prayer, silence, and surrender, she began to rebuild her life with God at the center.

This is a powerful reminder that formation often begins when we finally get honest with God.

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Transcript:

I was stuck in survival mode for so long, just trying to figure out what He wanted from me, where He wanted me, and not even being able to clearly hear Him.

My mom used to ask me, “How deep do you want to go? How deep in your walk with God do you want to go?” Because some people are surface level—and that’s okay. He leaves the choice up to us. We know we serve a great God, but what are we willing to do? What are we willing to let go? What new habits are we willing to adopt to deepen our relationship with Him?

I thought He was done stripping me—stripping all my layers—but there was more work He had to do. And I had to be willing to go through it.

As an entrepreneur and a mom with so many spinning plates, I’ve realized how easy it is to put everything else in front of what matters most. As much as I used to say, “God, I love You. I serve You. You’re first,” I wasn’t living it. He wants to be shown. He wants that relationship.

That morning coffee? That evening wind-down time? Include Him. He was asking me, “You can wake up early to work out—but what about Me?” So I started sitting in silence, sitting in His presence, asking, “Lord, here I am. What’s on Your agenda for me today before I look at mine?”

And the truth is—I don’t want anything else. Once you’ve had a taste of life without Him, you never want to go back. So I keep Him at the forefront of my mind. I say, “Lord, I fear You. I need You. I honor You.” Because I want to honor Him in everything I do.

Am I perfect? Absolutely not. I slip and stumble every day. But I don’t dwell on it—I come back and say, “God, I need You right now.” I’ve learned to just talk to Him like I talk to my friends. That’s when I began to go deeper with Him.

It didn’t start with tons of scripture. It started with being real. Honest. Just talk to Him. He already knows everything about you.

There’s a sweet, still, soft voice that asks, “Are you still going to serve Me the same if I give you this Cadillac? Will I become smaller in your life?” It’s easy to make little gods out of big things. But then you fall into a cycle of not really needing Him… not surrendering. That’s what happened to me—I started holding back in my relationship with Him, and it brought me back to my knees.

Now I lift my hands higher when I worship. I anoint my doors with oil every night. And just to be here after the fire… it’s incredible.

Not to be consumed by it.

But to overcome.